Monday, May 25, 2009

Here we go again.

If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. :-(
IUI #1 = Negatory
Back to the drawing board.
How can you do something right so many times and have it fail time and time again? Ugh! Not fair...
Today is my pity party day. Sucky day but gotta move on.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


So yesterday I had my progesterone checked.  Wasn't exactly sure what that is for but they said it should be over 20 at this point.  The nurse called back and said mine was over 20 so yeah for me.  She explained that basically over 20 means that I ovulated a good egg or two (hopefully only one) and that if everything met and joined together, then I would have a very good environment for growing a baby. So now, we wait to see if everything joined up correctly.  That test doesn't prove anything other than good egg ovulated and good environment.  At least we know that my body is doing what it is supposed to do.  Hopefully all that surgery and medication was worth while.  
Wait, wait, wait. 

Thursday, May 14, 2009


It's hard ignoring the big elephant in the room.  I'm doing my best to not think about it, and so far, I have been pretty good.  But it's kinda hard.  Especially since my neck hurts from that stupid car accident and I can't take the kind of medicine that I want to take on the chance that I am growing a baby inside me.  Tylenol is all I can take and it doesn't work that great.  But I'm suffering through it so not to mess up any chance I have of this thing actually working.  The hint of negativity in that last sentence, is just me trying not to get my hopes up too much.  Right now I'm at 50/50, it could go either way.  Now, back to not thinking about it for a few days.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

IUI #1

It's been a long day. Had to get up at 6:15 to get Tony off to the Dr. and didn't get much sleep after that. The IUI went pretty well. Tony's #'s were up and swimming rapidly and I could feel the pains of ovulation as I normally do. So the Dr. said everything looked really good. And it didn't hurt a bit, which was a relief. I was a bit scared of the catheter after having the HSG hurt so much. So now we just sit and wait and hopefully forget all about it until the next appt. I told Tony's mom today, so that's one less person I have to keep all this from.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

So it wasn't that easy.

Okay, so giving myself the shot was not as easy as I thought it would be. I got home around 7pm and I had until 8 to do it. Tony wasn't here, so I thought I would try it by myself. As I tried to take it out the packaging, I stuck myself with the needle and started bleeding and freaking out a little bit. So I was not off to a good start. Finally I iced my stomache for like 10 minutes and got ready to go. 1, 2, 3...nothing. 1,2,3...nothing, again and again, nothing. My hands just could not push it in no matter how hard I tried. My body was trembling. So I start breaking down crying. I call Tony and he doesn't answer, then my mom and she can't help me. So I tried to get Jessi over here to do it but she wasn't home. So I was on my own still. At this point it is about 7:30 and I don't know if I can do it. Finally, after more crying, and sticking myself 2 more times, I gather all my courage and said to my self, I can do it because I have to do it. So I bite the bullet and stab myself. After all that, it didn't even hurt except for the medicine going in and it was over in a few seconds. I was traumatized. I really hope that is the last time I have to do that because that will mean it worked.
Tomorrow we go to get the IUI. Think good thoughts....:-)

Friday, May 8, 2009

I'll take a shot.

Well, I went for my follicle scan on Tuesday. Nurse said I had one folli at 17mm and another at 12mm. She also took some blood to make sure the eggs were good eggs and not just cysts. I got the call later that day saying the b/w looked good and that I could take my Ovidrel shot tonight. Yeah! I'm kinda nervous about giving myself the shot but if I chicken out, I'll just have Tony do it. So once I do the shot, I should ovulate on Sunday morning. Tony goes in to give his deposit at 7:15 am on Sunday and then I go in to get the IUI at 10:15 am. Finally, we get a real chance at making a baby. I hope this works. I'm gonna try to be positive but not get my hopes up too much if that is possible. I know there is only a 20% chance of this working, but that is more than we had before.
Crossing fingers and toes, praying, wishing and hoping.