Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Being pregnant

Before I got pregnant I never really thought about what is going on in the life or mind of a pregnant lady. You see a pregnant lady and think how cute or thank goodness that isn't me, depending on what stage in life you are in. But it pretty much stopped there, at least for me. I don't even remember my sister being pregnant or feeling the baby. I didn't even know all the issues she had until I got pregnant and she told me. But since becoming pregnant, I obviously have a new perspective on the issue.

Being pregnant is hard, I don't care if you have an uncomplicated pregnancy or problems up the wazoo. All these changes going on are just plain hard on your body and mind. There are so many things other women don't tell you about what is gonna happen with your hormones and your body. You would think women would talk more openly about it but they don't. We are all on our own for some of this stuff. I guess some stuff is just too embarrassing or yucky to talk about with people you see all the time. Thank goodness for message boards. Those girls put it all out there, no shame, no matter the topic. I have learned so much from those girls.

I hope I'm not cursing myself, but I've had it pretty easy so far this pregnancy. Sure, I've had terrible headaches, and I feel terrible for about 2 hours after I eat, and sleeping is becoming harder to do, but I know I could have it much worse. But I still need to have the occasional pity party for myself about how I feel. Because this is all new to me and some of it I just don't understand or I wish would just go away, and I feel very alone sometimes. I wish I could speed it up so he gets here now, but I know I'm not ready yet and neither is he. I need more time to prepare and I know I will have more things to overcome before that day gets here.

I'm not one of those people who loves being pregnant but I don't hate it either. I'm in the middle on that one. There are some really neat things about being pregnant and some things that really suck. I wanted to do this, but I guess I didn't think or know about all the hard stuff you have to go through in order to get to the big payoff at the end of it all.

This post isn't a pity party post. It is more of a state of conciousness post. This is just what's going on in mind at this moment.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

25.5 weeks

Here I am at 25 weeks, still rockin a decent body, although some days I feel huge. So far so good on all fronts.
Complaint of the week: cellulite
I had a little bit on my legs before I got pregnant but good Lord has it attacked me with a vengance since I started growing this little baby. I looked at my legs last night and wanted to cry. It is all over them. In some lighting it looks like I have none and then I move to a different lighting and it's like Blam! where did that come from. I know you are supposed to just go with the flow with whatever is happening to your body when you are pregnant but come on! I've read that some or most of it will go away after I have the baby and breastfeed etc, but I have to live with it until then. That sucks!
I think we are gonna have to switch the nursery and guestroom. The guestroom is so much bigger with more closet space and I just dont' see the point in having a huge room for people to use only a few times a year. The bed and dresser will fit in the smaller room just fine and the baby will have so much crap, we will need the extra space for him. Plus, you don't want to make it too comfortable for guests or they won't want to leave. :-) I'm making the executive decision to move the room. Tony doesn't agree but it's gonna happen.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

24 weeks

Had my check up today. Kristi, mom and Tony's mom came to hear the heartbeat. They all got a kick out it. My mom got to feel a tiny kick but he wouldn't do it again for Kristi and Carol. Oh well, next time. Doctor says I'm doing perfectly fine and everything I'm experiencing is normal. I only gained 2 lbs this time which brings my grand total up to 10 pounds. He said that is on the low to normal side. So I'm still showing and not growing. Next appt I get to take the Gestational Diabetes test. What fun!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Rib kicks

He is officially kicking me in my ribs. It's like he's just spinning around and seeing what parts of my body he can kick now. Last night was the first time he kicked me in the ribs. I've heard those can hurt but for now it just feels a little different than the normal kicks but they are definitely getting a little harder. He freaked the cat out the other night when she was laying on my stomach. He kicked and Joy got startled and just looked at my stomach like what was that. Then she went back to sleep. Tony and I just laughed at her.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Nursery furniture

So we went out and got the baby's furniture this weekend. I like it because it looks strong and masculine but not too masculine. I wanted to get it in a cherry finish but Tony liked this color better so I went with this. It didn't really matter to me too much and I'm trying to take some of his input and go with it so he can feel like he's contributed. He may not act like he cares about all this stuff now, but he will later. We also bought a glider and ottoman but I can't find pics of it yet. since we've been saving our reward points on the credit card for awhile, all 4 pieces are only costing us about $450 out of pocket which is great! I also got the bedding. I hope it's cute in realy life.

This weekend wiped me out. We cleaned out the sun room and the dining room and the baby's room in preparation for Karrie's bridal shower this weekend and for the furniture for the baby's room that will be coming in a couple of weeks. I cannot wait until I can quit calling this kid "the baby" and give him a real name. Tony still calls him Blake but I just nod and say whatever. We will figure it out. Jackson and Luke are still my front runners.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

23 weeks

I guess this is my 23 weeks picture since I'm slacking on the at home ones. You can see my little bump. I think it's pretty cute.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

So here I am at 22 weeks. I'm actually 23 weeks this week but I'm a week behind on taking photos. I feel like I have grown so much in the past 3 or so weeks. I'm still little compared to some people but I'm beginning to feel it in my back and when I'm trying to get to sleep. Not too much to complain about except that I get so full after i eat that I'm pretty miserable for a few hours. But at least my headaches have eased up a bit so I'm not dealing with that so often.

We went on our babymoom to the Bahamas and had a realxing time. Got 3 spa treatments each and won some money on our last night at the casino. didn't really get any sun but who am I kidding, I'll be a glowing white girl forever. Why do I even bother. :-)

Now, everything is going to start going full steam ahead in the next couple of weeks. I have to plan Karrie's bridal shower, go registry shopping, register for some classes, figure out the whole day care situation, and then I have my shower in June. I'm a little overwhelmed but it will all work out I know.

Now if I can just figure out how to eat without feeling terrible afterward life would be great.