Thursday, January 26, 2012


New words are coming out of Jax's mouth daily.  Yesterday, I swear he said Mater, as in Mater from Cars, The Movie.  He hasn't even seen the movie.  He was eating one of his pouches and it had a picture of Mater on it and he looked at it and said Mater.  I was like, did he just say Mater?  We've only said that name a few times.  I don't know how he gets these things but he does.

He can open the front door all by himself now.  Scary stuff.  I'm sorry, I don't care who is outside, if you leave the door open, you are getting locked out.  I'm not taking any chances of Jax opening the door and walking outside by himself. 

We take walks most days and Sadie comes along with us.  It's so cute how Jax has taken to her.  Jax always walks ahead and turns around to look for her.  She is usually behind, so he will call her and wait for her to catch up.  It's so cute how he says her name. 

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Most trying day yet...

Two days ago, Tony and I had our most trying, frustrating day as parents.  To some people, this may not sound so bad, but, for us, it was the worst. 
I had been sick for 5 days at this point and I was finally feeling a bit better.  I was planning on going back to work yesterday but Jax had other plans.  He has been teething for the past 3 weeks, so we have been getting up every night anyway but we were not expecting this.  He went to sleep at his normal time 8:30pm, no fussing, no nothing.  Tony and I got into bed around 11:30.  At midnight, Jax woke up....

Tony and I had been arguing over who's turn it was to get up with him that night, so the night didn't start out well anyway.  We finally agreed it was Tony's since I was still sick, and he needed to let me get some sleep, so he got up and got Jax.  He fed him, rocked him and tried to put him to bed 3x in an hour, but it didin't work.  All the while, I am hearing Jax cry and whine and Tony complain the whole time, so no sleep for me.  So I got up and fed him again and rocked him and he finally went to sleep at 1:30.  At 2am, he woke up again.  We tried to put him back to sleep again, didn't work, so Tony drove him around town for half an hour and when he got home, Jax was still awake.  By 3am, Tony was done.  So I took over.  I tried everything in my arsenal but nothing worked. I tried to cuddle him, rock him, be stern with him and tell him who's boss and I am not proud of some of the things I said that night but I was so frustrated at this kid.  All he wanted to do was play and read books at 4 in the morning.  He would not listen to anything we had to say and wanted nothing to do with us, didn't want to be held and wanted mothing to do with sleeping in his bed.  We even tried putting him in our bed, no go.  It's like he wasn't tired at all.  I understand that he doesn't know we have to work in the morning but come on!  I gave up trying and watched Housewives of Beverly HIlls.  By 5:30am, Tony came back out and relieved me.  Right before I went to bed, Jax did a front somersault off his chair on to the floor.  We all freaked the crap out but he was fine.  At this point, Jax was pretty much delirious and he finally passed out on Tony's chest at 6am.  Then, he woke up at 8:30 and Tony just took him to daycare.

I feel bad for saying this but I have never felt so happy to send him to daycare and let someone else deal with him.  I...We were both so done with him that day.  I know we shouldn't be, but we were both so mad at him.  Tony felt like he was doing it on purpose, I kept telling him, he is only a baby and he isn't doing it on purpose but Tony was ready to take him to the fire station for real that night.

Tony went to work and I skipped work and slept, while Jax had a great day at daycare.  I thought he might be tired or cranky but daycare said he was perfectly pleasant.  When I picked him up, he was happy to see me and all those mad feelings of mine went away right then.  I felt guilty for even having them.

I really wish we spoke baby language or he could tell us what is going on in his little head.  Things would be so much easier.

Hopefully this was a one time thing.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012


So, Jax has a bully in his class.  I didn't think we would have to deal with this stuff until much later in life but what can you do.  A couple of months ago, I brought him to school and they were coloring on the table.  The teacher made a space for Jax and gave him a crayon, he started chewing on it and within a minute, this little girl comes over and takes it out of his mouth and starts coloring with it right next to him.  He looked shocked and started to cry.  The teacher and I both saw this and I picked him up and moved him to another part of the table and gave him a new crayon and he was fine.  A month ago, Tony dropped him off at school and he had his pacifier in his mouth.  As soon as he put Jax on the ground, the little girl came over and took the pacifier out of his mouth and put it in hers.  Jax, of course started to cry.  Then, a few weeks ago, Jax started biting and hitting out of nowhere. Not a lot, but enough that we noticed.  He had never done this before, so we figured he must be learning it from someone at school.   I talked to the teacher about it and asked if anyone was hitting or biting and she said that yes there is a problem arising from one of the kids and the others are just copying the behavior. They have been trying to correct it. She said she had only seen Jax do it twice and both times he stopped when they corrected him.  And he only did it to the kid who had hit or bit him.  I'm assuming this is the same little girl who has given him problems before.  She is a cute kid but she is big and brutish.  On one hand, I know he shouldn't hit or bite back, but on the other hand, I'm glad he is standing up for himself and put her in her place.  Is that bad of me?

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Christmas in pictures

Our tree this year. 
It was prettier but it fell down and got a little smooshed.
Jax playing with his new toy.
Daddy helping Jax open his presents.
Thanking robert for his gift.
At Grandma and Grandpa's house for Christmas.
Aunt Jen showing you the book.
Uncle Mark reading to you.
Sadie got in on the fun.
Me and my baby.
 Our signature family pose.
So cute.
My sweet boy and my sweet girl.
Jax and Ahma laughing at something.
Ahma and her grandkids.
Ahma and her kids and our kids.
Our 2 book nerds.
Hanging with the cousins.
His new playroom.


After having almost 2 weeks off and spending almost all day, everyday with you, going back to work today was almost as bad as going back last year after maternity leave.  This morning you woke up at 6:55am, just early enough for me to feed you and have a little morning cuddle before I left.  I don't know who needed it more, you, because you wouldn't go back to sleep and you cried when I passed you off to your dad when I had to leave, or me, because my heart in sinking in my chest right now just thinking about you and writing this.  :-(

16 months

This month flew by.  We celebrated your 2nd Christmas and New Year's and this year was much more fun.  You did such a good job opening your presents and you were actually excited about what was inside and not just the wrapping paper.  You watched daddy light the fireworks on New Year's Eve and you weren't even scared.  You loved all the Christmas lights and you kept pulling all the candy canes out of my candy cane forest in the front yard.

You just got a new tooth in the right bottom front.  Your sleeping habits are still terrible but I still attribute that to teething.  When you let us sleep, you can sleep from 9pm to 10am so we can't really complain about that.
You are saying new words left and right.  You can now say Sadie and you go around the house just calling her name all the time.  You are really falling in love with her too.  She is still tempermental but she is warming up to you too.  You can say ball, bubbles, bottle, bee, baby, mama, mommy, daddy, hi, bye, no, water, and some other words I'm forgetting.

You get so excited when we understand what you want.  You will point to your cabinet and ask for which snack you want.  You practically jump for joy when we give it to you.  You are so cute.

You like grapes,chicken, ham, tomatoes, cheese, corn, turkey, green beans, pasta, yogurt, oranges, strawberries, pineapples, pb&j sandwiches, rice cakes, puffs, yogurt melts and pouches. 

We turned the sunroom in to a playroom for you and you got so excited when we showed it to you.  You are very independent but still like us to play with you.

You are still very cuddley and still give hugs and kisses, although sometimes we have to steal them now.

You still love your morning and nighttime bottle (so do I).  We have dropped one bottle during the day so now we are down to 3 a day.

You still love to read.  Even your teachers say that is your favorite thing to do at school.  You have memorized most of our books at home.  Sometimes you want us to read to you and other times you will just sit down and read to yourself.

You have learned how to use a fork and now you almost demend it when it is time to eat.  You still need help but sometimes you can do it on your own and you are so proud of yourself.

You are getting too big too fast...but I love watching it happen right in front of me everyday.