Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Baby weight

Well,  I guess I've decided it's time to get rid of the extra 10-15 pounds this kid has put on me now.  I gained 28 lbs and lost 18 lbs pretty quickly.  But in the last month and a half and since I've been back to work I've gained back about 5 more pounds.  I thought breastfeeding was supposed to help you lose weight but I'm so hungry all the time, I guess I've been eating more than the allotted 400 extra calories that it gets rid of a day.  Plus, with it being the holidays, I've been eating a lot of crap.  So, I'm gonna try to eat better once the new year comes around and try to fit in some Wii or something to get back into shape.  I went up a size or two and I'm ready to go back down.  Tony has been okay about it but I know his opinions are gonna start making their appearance shortly if I don't do something about it.  I'm doing it for me though, not just for him.  I'm over lugging around this extra weight.


I must say, this was one of the best Christmases in a long time.  Not just because we have Jaxson this year but it was just good all around.  No drama, not too much stress and just good times with everyone.  Tony and I both got some surprise gifts for each other, which was nice. Jaxson got so much stuff.  I'm glad we didn't really buy him any gifts since everyone else bought him so much stuff.  I'm still trying to figure out where to put it all.   He had no clue what was going on but he seemed to have a blast anyway.  He is getting so big now, with all his chubbiness and his hair is starting to grow back in.  I'm thinking it's gonna be reddish brown/auburn.  He really wants to sit up on his own now.  He tries to pull himself up but can't quite do it.  He likes to grab my hands and pull himself up from a laying position all the way up to stand.  He held his bottle all by himself on Christmas Eve.  I know it was a fluke but he did it.  He still hasn't rolled over, but I'm not ready for that yet anyway.
He is getting such a personality.  He flirts with his eyes and smiles all the time.  He tries to mimick our sounds and he loves for us to make any goofy noise with our tongue or make stupid faces at him.  He is laughing a lot now.  He is such a happy baby.  I don't know what we did to deserve such a good baby.  I just hope he stays that way and isn't a terror when he gets older.  Only time will tell so I'm enjoying this for as long as it lasts.  Now, I just wish he would go to bed at a decent time and let me sleep through the night.  Wishful thinking at this point.

Monday, December 27, 2010

1st Christmas pictures

 Cool like dad.
 Yeah!  Presents!
 Family picture
 Cutest picture ever!
 Our little Christmas present.
 Playing in the bumbo.
 Cool little man.
Wrapping paper fun!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Family pic

Even though I just went on a rant in the previous post. I love my family. :-)

Tired vent

I am tired. Not just tired, but wiped out. I don't know how single parents do it. If I didn't have Tony to help out occasionally when I needed it I don't know how I would manage. I am used to 9-11 hours of sleep to function. Now, I go to bed between 11-12 and if I'm not woken up by Jax around 3am, then I am up anywhere from 6-7am getting Jax fed and myself ready for work and I am gone from 7:30am til 6pm, 5 days a week now. When I get home, if I'm lucky Jax is asleep and will stay sleeping for at least 20 minutes so I can empty his bag, clean the bottles, get the bottles for the next day ready, repack his bag, change my clothes, go to the bathroom, and figure out what's for dinner. If he's not asleep, then none of that gets done until way later in the evening. Then I still have to feed him, feed us and play with him if he stays up long enough to do that. By this time it's already 8pm or so. Throw in 1 more feeding and watching a little tv and that's my day 5x a week. I don't like it. I have no time to get things done. There was no mention of working out, cleaning or groceries in there because I have no time to do it during the week. Showering? Um, not as often as I'd like is all I will say. Time with Tony? Not as often as I would like. We are only in the same room if I am feeding Jax in the office or if a tv show that we both like is on. Tony is stuck in the office most nights doing Gasket Guy since I have no time to do it now. Half the time, Jax is so tired from daycare, he barely stays awake an hour the whole night, so I don't get to interact with him that much during the week. I just don't know how people do it. I guess I do, because I am doing it, but how do they do it without burning out. I used to love shopping, now it's a chore because I would rather stay home and "rest". Visiting people? No thanks, that's a chore too, you can come to us. Hanging out with friends? Well, that would mean I have to decide to hang out with them instead of my baby who I haven't seen very much all week. The weekends are a whole other ordeal. That's when I get to clean the house, go grocery shopping, do the laundry, do a little bit of Gasket Guy and any other thing that was neglected during the week. Sleeping in doesn't really exist anymore and I know I signed up for that when I had a baby, but, my husband sleeps in ALMOST EVERYDAY! Even the week days. And I'm expected to do all this everyday. Not fair. I'm just tired, did I mention that already? Tired, Tired, Tired. And to top it off, I have no days off at work until next year. The holidays are this weekend and they are just gonna make me more tired. Bah Humbug. Just call me Scrooge.
I'm so so tired I didn't even make any paragraphs out of this.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

First cough

Last weekend Jax started getting his first cough. He made it look like it was the most terrible thing ever, which I'm sure to him it was. It broke my heart when he woke up screaming and coughing 3x in the night. I didn't know what to do at first but letting him eat and pass out on me seemed to work. I thought it was going away but last night he seemed to get more stuffed up and coughy. Hopefully it won't turn into a full blown cold. He looks so pitiful. But it makes me feel good that I can make him feel a little bit better just by holding and rocking him and that I'm the one he wants to comfort him. Yesterday, he was looking for me even when my mom was holding him. Once she gave him to me, he fell asleep in my arms. So sweet. Love him.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


Tummy time
Laughing away

Sleepy time

Thursday, December 9, 2010

This morning

This morning Jaxson woke me up at 6am to eat. This is a little earlier than I'd like but he let me get almost 6 straight hours of sleep so how could I not. Anyway, he got done eating around 6:40 which gave me about 30 minutes to go back to bed. Instead of putting him back in the PNP like I usually do, I put him in bed with us. He was all warm and cuddly in his new fleece sleep sack. I put him close to me and held his little hands and caressed his face and he fell right back to sleep. Occasionally he would squeeze my hand as if to say hi mom thanks for letting me sleep up here with you guys. I would normally just go back to sleep at this point but instead I just cuddled him and listened to him breathe and make little baby noises for a half hour. Wonderful way to start my day.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Some milestones

Things I've noticed Jax doing now:
  • Looking at his little hands in wonder in front of his face.
  • He can grasp a rattle.
  • He found his feet but doesn't care much about them yet.
  • He likes to hear himself talk and coo.
  • He is laughing all the time now.
  • He can stand up from a reclined position (by holding on to my fingers)
  • His neck muscles are getting very strong.
  • He's got good kicking skills
  • He is sticking his tongue out at us.
  • He can find me across the room.
  • He knows our voices, he gets excited hearing us talk to him over the phone.
  • He rolls from side to side but not all the way over yet.
  • He can poop through a diaper like it's no ones business.

1 week down

Well, we both made it through a full week of me working and Jax going to daycare. I could tell a little difference in his eating habits with me but he seemed pretty happy to get his alone time with me too. I was so looking forward to the weekend but when the weekend came, I had so much I needed to fit into it, that I still need another day to do it all now. Working motherhood sucks. Not enough time in the day to do it all. I miss my baby.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

1st visit with Santa

Jax did such a good job visiting with Santa. He wasn't afraid or anything. He seemed to be a bit fascinated by him. He was so alert to all the lights and took great pictures. Kylee took one for the team and sat on Santa's lap so we could get a picture of both of them. I can't wait for him to see our house light up and decorated this year. I think he will really like the lights and the fire in the fireplace. He is just the cutest little baby in the world.