So tomorrow we take Jax for his hypospadias surgery. Basically we go in to the hospital at 9:30 and his surgery should start around 11:30am. The doctor said he has a mild case and it should be an easy fix but he won't know until he gets in there and sees what he's working with. If all goes well, we should be home and relaxing by 3pm tomorrow. Hopefully he won't need a catheter. Just 2 weeks with no straddle or bouncy toys and lots of TLC. They say he will probably fine by the next day. I'm not nervous so much as anxious to get it over with. I know everything will be okay. It has to be.
Hypospadias is a male birth defect in which the opening of the tube that carries urine from the body (urethra) develops abnormally, usually on the underside of the penis. The opening can occur anywhere from just below the end of the penis to the scrotum. Hypospadias is sometimes treated with surgery to correct the placement of the urethral opening, usually during the first year of life. There are several different types of surgery, which may include repositioning of the urethra, correcting the placement of the urethral opening in the head of the penis, and reconstructing the skin of the area around the urethral opening. Because the foreskin may be needed for surgical repair, a baby with hypospadias should not be circumcised.
It's funny, when Jax was born, the doctors acted like his little issue was a miracle or neat thing or something. He came out half circumcised at birth, what a rarity! I remember telling everyone about our "special boy". They said it only happens in a small amount of boys, like 1 in a million and our doctor had never seen it before. Then, before we are released, they tell us it is actually a small birth defect that affects 1 in 250 boys and he will need surgery to correct it. Nice! Way to make a post pardom first time mama feel wonderful.
I just hope this surgery doesn't change him in any negative way. I hope he doesn't have a clue about what is happening and doesn't remember any of this. I hope he doesn't get scared. I feel so bad that he has to go through this. In a way, his innocence will be gone just a little after tomorrow. He has never known hurt or pain or real fear. I hope he feels little if none of those tomorrow. He is so little and unaware and innocent but I guess that's why we need to do it now. So he doesn't remember. I hope I can be strong and be a good mama and treat his wounds even though I will probably want to pass out while doing so. I'm not good with the yucky stuff but I know I've got to suck it up this time. I hope he is back to his happy, loving, playful little self in no time and he can heal and move on from this quickly.
Mama and daddy love you. You are already perfect in our eyes and I know God will protect you and make you even more perfect once this is all over.