The scary closet

So I got locked in my walk-in closet last night. I got home from work and the maids were cleaning the house. They don't speak very good English and Tony says they are afraid of the dog when she starts barking. Tony was outside mowing the lawn. So I go into my closet to change, and I shut the pocket door so no one can see me. When I get ready to go out, I pull the door open and it is stuck. Not a little stuck, but it would only open enough for me to get my fingers out. So I tried to pry open the door and it's going nowhere. I turn around and realize how small this stupid closet really is, so panick is starting to set in. I yell for someone to help me but the maids have the vacuum going, so they can't hear me and Tony is still outside. I keep yelling HELP, HELP, I'm in the bedroom, but no one responds. Sadie, being the good dog that she is runs to the closet and starts barking at me because I'm yelling and then I hear her run down the hall barking, looking for someone to come help. She keeps barking at the maids and comes back to the closet but I guess they were afraid of her, so they didn't follow her. I hear them turn the vaccuum off, like maybe they heard me, so I scream really loud, the dog is barking but they just turn the vaccuum back on. So I really start to panick now because I really have to go to the bathroom and if no one helps me get out, I'm gonna pee my pants and be stuck in here for at least an hour. So I start jerking at this door, looking like a crazy pregnant woman, all while screaming for HELP. At that point, I thought about busting through the door, I didn't care if I broke it, I just wanted OUT. I could see myself in the mirror so that helped a little, but that closet was getting smaller and smaller by the second. I stuck my head out of the little bit of space I had to breathe cold air, got my composure a little bit and I took another try at the door. At this point, the door was crooked and half way off the tracks, but I jerked it as hard as I could and finally broke out of there. Luckily I didn't have to break the door. I cut my hand and finger in this whole process. I went to the bathroom and cried a little bit just from having so much adreneline in me. It really was a tramatic experience.

I went outside and found Tony, and told him I just needed a hug. So he hugged me and I started crying again. He asked why I was crying and I told him my story. He said he would have broken the door down if he was stuck like that. All in all I was in the closet for only about 10 minutes but it seemed like an eternity, especially knowing that if I couldn't get out on my own, I would have been in there for at least an hour waiting for Tony.

Sadie is my hero. She reacted just like Lassie would have. She tried really hard to save me and that's why I love her. :-)

Lesson learned:
DO NOT CLOSE THE POCKET DOORS BEHIND YOU IF THERE IS NO OTHER WAY OUT.

Again with the hormones!

I caught about an hour of this movie called "Away We Go" last night. It's about this expectant couple traveling to different places where family and friends live, to pick a place to raise their kid. Now, any of my friends or family can tell you that I am not a crier when it comes to movies. I will not cry in front of my mom or sister by any means when we are watching movies. I make fun of them for doing it. Although, I couldn't hold back the tears in front of Kylee during Marley and Me, but that was about a dog, come on.

Anyway, This movie just hit me like a ton of bricks. The girl is 6 months pregnant and just everything she is feeling, I have felt in the last few months. She has her pity party moments and the guy being a really good expectant dad, says all the right things, even though they don't help her feel any better, she cries and he continues to say sweet things anyway. I'm watching it and crying and of course Tony comes out and sees me. As I try explaining to him why I was crying, I started bawling some more and I tell him I'm not even sad, it's just the stupid hormones. He tells me I'm so cute and gives me a box of kleenex and leaves the room. I told him he could use a few pointers from the guy in the movie. A hug would have been nice. Just saying. He's doing better at this stuff, but just coming up short sometimes.

Anyway, I'm over these dumb hormones.

3D ultrasound

So we went for our 3D ultrasound on Saturday. Me, Tony, Kristi, Kylee, mom, Carol, Mike and Karrie all went. We had to drive all the way out to almost Kissimmee but it was free and it was worth it.

The lady doing the ultrasound used to be an OB and surgeon so she was able to give us a lot of information we didn't get at our other ultrasounds. She could tell by the length of the arm that the due date is around 8-30, but the length of the leg done gives a due date of around 9-6. Personally, I think he will be born between 9/3 -9/5. We will see in a few weeks. She said he is a chubby baby but still within normal size for his age, around 3-3.5 lbs. She said all of his organs and everything look good and my fluid and placenta look good and my cervix is closed.

He would only give us a profile view so we still can't really tell who he looks like, but we think he might have gotten my nose and Tony's chin. The best of both of us so far, the smaller chin and smaller nose. Lord help his eyebrows though. :-) He does have hair on his head. You could see his little outline and everything. I think it will be really dark when he comes out.

I think it was really neat for everoney to see, none of us had ever seen anything like that before. Got some good pictures too.

Hormonal meltdown...in a funny way.

Last night I was watching Bethenny Getting Married. I don' tknow what it is about her but she is funny to me. She's very direct and matter of fact and just says really good one liners. Anyway, the scene wasn't that funny but something in it just tickled me and I started laughing, really hard. So hard that Tony came out to see what was so funny. I rewined the DVR and showed him. He thought it was funny but I just busted out again laughing hysterically. Crying laughing where tears were just spitting out of my face. So he starting laughing at me really hard, to where he was tearing up, which made me laugh even harder. As I was laughing, I could feel the crying laugh turn into a laughing cry but I fought it. I knew that if I let myself go with it, I would literally start bawling right there. My face was drenched in tears but I was still laughing. This went on for a good 10 minutes. Tony finally got up because he was done laughing and was beginning to think I was a freak. Finally, I settled down and only had a few more outbursts before the hormones let me level out.

It was really good to let it out though. I had just read in the baby book not to be surprised if one minute you are laughing and the next you are crying. I think that is part of why I couldn't stop.

Hospital Tour

We took the hospital tour last night. Pretty standard stuff but it was good to get a look at the rooms and have some questions answered.

What we learned:

• Only 3 people can be in the rooms at one time to visit
• We have a 2 hour recovery period before we will be moved to our official room
• We have to be there for 48 hrs from the time of birth before being discharged
• If I have a C-section, only Tony can be in there with me
• I need to eat before I get there, because most likely all they will give me is liquids until I deliver (very important to stop for food beforehand)
• I can shower after the birth if I'm able to walk
• Visiting hours are from 9am-9pm
• Baby stays with us the whole time unless there are complications

We learned some other stuff but those are the most important for now. Tony even asked a couple of questions. They were about the wifi connections in the rooms and how he can name the baby without my permission, but at least he asked something I guess. We were the funny couple of the group.

It was good to know what our options are and I will be putting together a plan soon for how I would like things to go. I know everything will happen how it happens but Tony and I have some requests from our families about who we want where in the hours leading up to the birth.

On another note, I freaked out last night because I thought I saw my first stretch marks on both sides of my belly right before bed. There were 4 scratch like things going on. I slathered on some extra lotion and decided not to cry about it unless they were there this morning. Well, I woke up, and they were all gone. I think Tony just scratched me or something. He likes to gently scratch the belly. So luckily, I'm still stretch mark free for now. Crossing fingers that it stays that way.

Crib pics

Helping put it together.

Figuring it out.

Close up of bedding.

Finished product. :-)

Now, on to the dresser.

27 & 28 weeks pics

27 weeks

28 weeks

My boobs are keeping up with my belly. They can stop now, that's big enough. :-)

28 weeks appt.

I had my gestational diabetes test today. The drink wasn't as bad as everyone was saying. It just tasted like flat orange soda. I won't know if I passed until Friday. The baby slept through the whole thing. Must have been too much for him. Doctor says he weighs about 2.5 lbs now, which is right on track.

I gained 4 lbs so I'm up to a total of 14 lbs. Still on the low to normal side. Fine by me, the less I put on, the less I have to take off. I felt like I gained a lot this month but I guess it was mostly baby.

We finished putting the crib together last night and put the bedding on it. It looks cute. I like it. Tony made sure I took pics of it all together. I think he secretly is getting into things slowly but surely although he still will not admit it.

So after our big flood last weekend, we are finally back in the house. I am still hoping we can get our flooring in before my shower. We will be cutting it close no matter what.

UF-of L

A while ago I was talking to my mom about how I don't understand these girls who say they fell in love with their baby the minute they got a + on a stick. I never knew how I would feel once I became pregnant but I knew it wouldn't be like that. I'm not built like that. This post may contradict that, but I'm just not all sappy and emotional like that. I knew I would be happy but I didn't know when the love would kick in. I figured it took me about 6 months to fall in love with Tony, how was I gonna fall in love with this kid without even meeting him? To me love is a process that takes time and this isn't any different. In the beginning all he did was make me feel sick and miserable and once that was over with all I did was worry if everything was okay with him. I knew I would protect him with everything I had but did that mean I loved him? I don't know. Even after seeing him on the ultrasounds I didn't feel like I was in love. But as time has gone by, I've grown to really like this person inside of me but I still thought that I would probably feel the love when I met him on the outside...until today.

Today, I fell in love with my baby. I don't know what is different about today but something just changed. Occassionally I'll call Tony on the phone from work or wherever and tell him I was just calling because at that moment in time, I'm having uncontrollable feelings of love for him, that makes his day and then we hang up and go about our business. Well, today I was just sitting in the car singing a random song on the radio, rubbing my belly and those same uncontrollable feelings came over me. But this time I wasn't thinking about Tony. It was all for this little boy I have yet to meet. It brought a tear to my eye (stupid hormones). He wasn't even moving around, he was still sleeping but something just clicked. So I guess I am in love with another boy now. I hope Tony won't be jealous, although he has already expressed how he is scared I will love the little guy more than him. I guess that's a normal feeling for guys to have.

P.S. I don't want sappy comments on this.

Sensitivity training

Certain people just don't understand.
Sensitivity training is needed.
That is all I will say at this time. :-(

Memorial Day Weekend

Started putting the crib together this weekend. Wasn't too hard but I definitely needed Tony's help. We got 3/4 of the way done and of course, it was missing a nut or bolt or something. So now we have to wait for them to send us another one in the mail. Tony finally switched the rooms, at least half way. He moved the bed in to the smaller room, but of course he had to set it up his way, not the way it would fit best. He's so concerned about people beign able to get in and out of the the bed on both sides. He's a dork but at the moment I guess I'm just glad he gave in and moved it. We will see how the room gets set up completely later. ;-)

We went to a lake party this weekend and everyone was telling me how small and good I look for being almost 7 months pregnant. I'm glad that I seem small to everyone but I am just hoping the pounds don't start packing on me in the last couple of months. I weighed myself a couple of days ago and I had already gained 4 lbs since my last appt. At this rate, I'll have gained at least 6 more pounds this month. That will only bring me up to 16 lbs total but it is still hard to adjust to gaining so much weight in such a small amount of time.

The weight is really starting to get to my back now. Everyday I have a shart pain going through from right below my right boob through to right under my bra strap. I think it is from sitting in an upright position for too long. I notice it a lot at work or if I'm sitting in a chair. I think the pain in the front is from my underwire. I feel like I'm losing sensation right there, but I also get lightning bolt like pain there too. I went to the back doctor and he tried to fix it but whatever he did, didn't help. So I'm just stuck with the pain for now.
I am officially waddling because of it.

Kylee got to feel the baby kick this weekend. And my mom felt him have the hiccups. He started having the hiccups about 2 weeks ago. He gets those a lot. It's cute. He's rolling a lot now too.

Being pregnant

Before I got pregnant I never really thought about what is going on in the life or mind of a pregnant lady. You see a pregnant lady and think how cute or thank goodness that isn't me, depending on what stage in life you are in. But it pretty much stopped there, at least for me. I don't even remember my sister being pregnant or feeling the baby. I didn't even know all the issues she had until I got pregnant and she told me. But since becoming pregnant, I obviously have a new perspective on the issue.

Being pregnant is hard, I don't care if you have an uncomplicated pregnancy or problems up the wazoo. All these changes going on are just plain hard on your body and mind. There are so many things other women don't tell you about what is gonna happen with your hormones and your body. You would think women would talk more openly about it but they don't. We are all on our own for some of this stuff. I guess some stuff is just too embarrassing or yucky to talk about with people you see all the time. Thank goodness for message boards. Those girls put it all out there, no shame, no matter the topic. I have learned so much from those girls.

I hope I'm not cursing myself, but I've had it pretty easy so far this pregnancy. Sure, I've had terrible headaches, and I feel terrible for about 2 hours after I eat, and sleeping is becoming harder to do, but I know I could have it much worse. But I still need to have the occasional pity party for myself about how I feel. Because this is all new to me and some of it I just don't understand or I wish would just go away, and I feel very alone sometimes. I wish I could speed it up so he gets here now, but I know I'm not ready yet and neither is he. I need more time to prepare and I know I will have more things to overcome before that day gets here.

I'm not one of those people who loves being pregnant but I don't hate it either. I'm in the middle on that one. There are some really neat things about being pregnant and some things that really suck. I wanted to do this, but I guess I didn't think or know about all the hard stuff you have to go through in order to get to the big payoff at the end of it all.

This post isn't a pity party post. It is more of a state of conciousness post. This is just what's going on in mind at this moment.

25.5 weeks

Here I am at 25 weeks, still rockin a decent body, although some days I feel huge. So far so good on all fronts.

Complaint of the week: cellulite

I had a little bit on my legs before I got pregnant but good Lord has it attacked me with a vengance since I started growing this little baby. I looked at my legs last night and wanted to cry. It is all over them. In some lighting it looks like I have none and then I move to a different lighting and it's like Blam! where did that come from. I know you are supposed to just go with the flow with whatever is happening to your body when you are pregnant but come on! I've read that some or most of it will go away after I have the baby and breastfeed etc, but I have to live with it until then. That sucks!

I think we are gonna have to switch the nursery and guestroom. The guestroom is so much bigger with more closet space and I just dont' see the point in having a huge room for people to use only a few times a year. The bed and dresser will fit in the smaller room just fine and the baby will have so much crap, we will need the extra space for him. Plus, you don't want to make it too comfortable for guests or they won't want to leave. :-) I'm making the executive decision to move the room. Tony doesn't agree but it's gonna happen.

24 weeks

Had my check up today. Kristi, mom and Tony's mom came to hear the heartbeat. They all got a kick out it. My mom got to feel a tiny kick but he wouldn't do it again for Kristi and Carol. Oh well, next time. Doctor says I'm doing perfectly fine and everything I'm experiencing is normal. I only gained 2 lbs this time which brings my grand total up to 10 pounds. He said that is on the low to normal side. So I'm still showing and not growing. Next appt I get to take the Gestational Diabetes test. What fun!

Rib kicks

He is officially kicking me in my ribs. It's like he's just spinning around and seeing what parts of my body he can kick now. Last night was the first time he kicked me in the ribs. I've heard those can hurt but for now it just feels a little different than the normal kicks but they are definitely getting a little harder. He freaked the cat out the other night when she was laying on my stomach. He kicked and Joy got startled and just looked at my stomach like what was that. Then she went back to sleep. Tony and I just laughed at her.

Nursery furniture

So we went out and got the baby's furniture this weekend. I like it because it looks strong and masculine but not too masculine. I wanted to get it in a cherry finish but Tony liked this color better so I went with this. It didn't really matter to me too much and I'm trying to take some of his input and go with it so he can feel like he's contributed. He may not act like he cares about all this stuff now, but he will later. We also bought a glider and ottoman but I can't find pics of it yet. since we've been saving our reward points on the credit card for awhile, all 4 pieces are only costing us about $450 out of pocket which is great! I also got the bedding. I hope it's cute in realy life.

This weekend wiped me out. We cleaned out the sun room and the dining room and the baby's room in preparation for Karrie's bridal shower this weekend and for the furniture for the baby's room that will be coming in a couple of weeks. I cannot wait until I can quit calling this kid "the baby" and give him a real name. Tony still calls him Blake but I just nod and say whatever. We will figure it out. Jackson and Luke are still my front runners.

23 weeks

I guess this is my 23 weeks picture since I'm slacking on the at home ones. You can see my little bump. I think it's pretty cute.

So here I am at 22 weeks. I'm actually 23 weeks this week but I'm a week behind on taking photos. I feel like I have grown so much in the past 3 or so weeks. I'm still little compared to some people but I'm beginning to feel it in my back and when I'm trying to get to sleep. Not too much to complain about except that I get so full after i eat that I'm pretty miserable for a few hours. But at least my headaches have eased up a bit so I'm not dealing with that so often.

We went on our babymoom to the Bahamas and had a realxing time. Got 3 spa treatments each and won some money on our last night at the casino. didn't really get any sun but who am I kidding, I'll be a glowing white girl forever. Why do I even bother. :-)

Now, everything is going to start going full steam ahead in the next couple of weeks. I have to plan Karrie's bridal shower, go registry shopping, register for some classes, figure out the whole day care situation, and then I have my shower in June. I'm a little overwhelmed but it will all work out I know.

Now if I can just figure out how to eat without feeling terrible afterward life would be great.

Babymoon

Getting ready for our babymoon on Thursday. Cruising to the Bahamas for some sun and fun while I'm still small enough to enjoy it. I just look forward to getting out of town for a few days. We are so used to going on 2 trips a year and we haven't been on any vacations since last April. I guess we are spoiled in some sense but even after the baby gets here I hope we still vacation a lot. It is so refreshing to get away.

Tony officially felt the baby this weekend. He kept thinking it was his pulse but then the baby kicked him hard and there was no denying it. It wasn't that exciting to him but I guess that's fine. Maybe he will be impressed when he sees him move around from the outside.

I hope I get more excited about registering next week. I am just not that into it yet. There is just so much stuff to go through and I don't know what I need or don't need. I'm just ready to get our house in shape so we can start setting up the room.

Baby Boy!

It's a boy! No denying it from the pictures. I had my 20 week ultrasound today and they said everything looks great and right on track. I've gained 8 pounds so far. At this point I should have gained about 10 by now so I'm pretty much on track. Although the Dr. did give me a little crap for gaining 6 lbs in one month, saying I should only be gaining a pound a week and I gained 1.5 week. Well, I was just catching up since I had only gained 2 lbs before that. Whatever!

Anyway, baby weighs 12 oz, about the weight of a can of coke. He has all his little body parts and was laying on his belly for most of the appt. We had to make him roll over to get some of the images. He was a little stubborn but finally cooperated. We could see brain activity and his little heart just beating away. His little muscles on his arms were so cute, takes after Tony with his "guns". We got our money shot and he is definitely all boy. Yes, I wanted a girl but I'm not really disappointed or anything. It will just be a different adventure. Maybe we will get a girl next time if we try again. I'm going to go buy a little outfit this weekend and hang it in the closet to remind us of what is coming our way. I think it will help make it more real too. Tony is still determined to call it Blake but I'll let him have his way until the baby gets here. Then we will give it his real name. Last night Tony came to bed and said "Goodnight Blake" and I said shut up and then we laughed and went to sleep. At least it's a start.